I lie in bed at night and write posts in my head. In the morning, I forget what they were about. I think I should write, I want to, and then, laundry and bills and pinterest.
Blogging has changed so much! It’s all about sponsors and staging and sometimes I feel like there’s no place for storytelling anymore. But I know that’s not true. Even if no one reads my story, no one else is going to tell it. My kids might want to know more about their mom one day, and I don’t want my life to become a mess in a game of telephone. I’d rather it come from me. Hard as the real story may read.
I’ve been so quiet here this year. It’s been a hard one, but one that I’ve been able to handle. It’s hard to complain when you have health coverage and a roof over your head. Every year I get a little better at handling my depression and every year I think “this” year I will win. There’s no way to win, there is only the fight. I’ve been doing a lot of fighting. But I am getting better, stronger with each battle.
All of this is to say I’m coming back. When the desire hits (and it does a lot) to sit and share, I will, I’ve been ignoring it. I’ve been ignoring most of what’s good for me for a long time.
I’m enjoying the season so much! Decorating and shopping and we took the kids sledding for the first time this past weekend. I can’t wait for Christmas, the magic is high this year- both boys are INTO IT. And I’m planning for the new year, fitness, health and growing my business. And praying that 2014 will be the year my kids fall in love with sleeping. (OMG!)
This is a pretty crummy update, but you have to poke your head out if you’re going to begin. So, hey. I miss you!