Okay, you guys. I have one hell of an announcement. As of November 1st, I’m not spending any money on myself.
I spend so much money. Too much money. Some of it on things I genuinely need but most of it is stuff I just want. I need one pair of jeans not a bag full of tops and accessories to go with the jeans I actually needed. I needed a pair of new nail clippers not the 3 new shades of polish and a lip gloss. And on and on and on. I have grabby hands. I WANT STUFF. I LOVE stuff.
For those of you playing along at home you know I’ve not worked a day since Nate was born 4 years ago. And yet, I still shop as if I have my own income. I don’t and it’s so ass of me to act as if I do. I need to learn how to stop buying the extra stuff. I need to find another way to get that little high. I have a closet full of clothes I love, great shoes and accessories, more nail polish that a girl needs and I really don’t need a thing. My house looks great, too. I don’t need to keep buying crap for it, either.
So, one year. No shopping.
I am keeping my gym membership and my trainer. I will also continue to get my haircut. Neither of these things are cheap but I’m not trying to lose myself in this process, I am trying to better it. So my hair and my body will not suffer. Just my emotional state. Since I think all of this shopping is just that, emotional. I don’t know why or if it’s true yet but we’ll see. And I’m totally going to talk to my therapist about this.
I will keep a little log of how each month goes, if I slip up or cry over something I can’t-wont’ allow myself to have. Both I’m sure will happen. I already forgot last week and got a coffee at Starbucks and was SO PISSED over spending $4.55 on coffee I almost didn’t enjoy it. Except I totally did.
Speaking of such things. Mike and I are still going to have our monthly date nights. We will still spend money as a family and on the kids and if we are all out and Mike is getting coffee you can bet your sweet ass I will too. What I wont do is get it on my own, just for me.
So, this is happening and while I’m feeling empowered by it right now I SO KNOW I hate the entire idea already and don’t want to do it at all. But, I already handed Mike my credit card and told him that this is on. He couldn’t be more about it! (shocker)
Stay tuned.. I’m sure there will be much talk about this. Loosing magazine subscriptions. Learing to love the library again. Wish lists. Ect.