Thanks for all of the hang in there’s! I am doing okay, my mood has leveled out and the discomfort has subsided. I get a little ahem, leaky about 30 minutes before Nate’s bedtime but aside from that all is well.
I am back in that annoying place where things are sort of out of my control. Where I love the milestones and playing with Nathan but am not into sitting on the floor for hours on end playing with him. I have put up a few gates in the basement along with some other detours and that is helping a lot. He has learned to climb the stairs, baby gate, he goes right for the power strip under the desk with it’s blinking red light, baby gate. He kept getting stuck under one of the tables that have X style legs, I put a milk crate with about 15 lbs of hand weights inside it to keep him from getting under the table. These few little things allow me to leave the room for a few minutes or to just sit on the couch and watch him, not go after him and re direct.
I keep buying him new toys, thinking that if he had something “better” he would stay put. I am realizing that isn’t going to happen. His favorite toy right now is his body, and I have to allow him to play. That being said he likes to use his toy to play in the dogs water dish. Therein lies a lot of my problem. To keep him away from the dish I have to gate him out, but, the dog needs his water all day and I’m not going to lock the dog away with his water bowl. Some battles I cannot win, I have to allow him to crawl to the bowl, tell him no, and park him across the room. Rinse, repeat. I fell like some of this madness is necessary. If I never tell him no, he will be a brat. I can’t keep him in a room that is 100% baby friendly or later when he is told no and something is taken from him meltdown will ensue. I could be totally off base but I am hoping that going through all of this now will pay off later. I like to think that this is easier than a tantrum?
Because of all of this I am feeling down. Your days are so monotonous, I feel like a hamster on a wheel. There are no surprises, and if there is it is a bad one like no napping, or dog puke! I miss the days of surprise doughnuts at the office- hah! Our days are scheduled, which is nice but also boring. A normal day around here is up at 7:30- Nurse- Diaper change- Cheerios while I eat breakfast- run errands or basement to play until nap at 10- up at 11:30- diaper, dress- 12 lunch for both of us- errands/park/ play -whatever- 2:15 snack ,2:30 diaper, nap till-4:30 – dinner at 5- bath at 7:15- nurse at 7:30. Every single day! I like to get out of the house everyday, that makes a huge difference in my mood and Nathan loves it, too. If I stay home for more than one day it is not pretty. I sort of throw in the towel and don’t get dressed and just mope around feeling sorry for myself and eating cookies. I’m not doing that anymore! I’m getting dressed, leaving the house and man, I have got to stop buying and baking cookies!
Learning how to do this job isn’t always easy or fun. But, it is a gift and I need to remember to treat it as just that.