I have been finding myself at a loss for words, and sort of finding myself lost as well. I have so much going on, tons to talk about with a sister but not so much that I feel like its of any use here. I was talking to Mike last night about possibly wrapping it up here but he encouraged me to keep at it. Even if you all stop reading I guess its a good outlet.
So, I mentioned last week that the baby was eating every 2 hours and I wasn’t getting any sleep. That day I decided I had enough and forced a schedule on him and it actually worked! It took a couple days but hes got it now, he’s eating every 4 and taking naps again. His “snacking” was really messing him up and he wasn’t getting nearly enough rest. He is much more content now. Thank goodness, I was about to loose it.
I’m struggling a lot with what to eat. Nathan has had a couple belly aches and the first one I know what caused it but this weekend was pure Hell and I have NO idea what I ate this time. My Mom told me to cut out onions and apples, Ive done both and he has been fine ever since. Its so hard, I mean, apples? How was I supposed to know that? Its really exhausting, I question every single thing that goes in my mouth, I’m temped to just eat the exact same thing for the next 10 months just to be sure I don’t make him sick. Its so heartbreaking to know that your baby is hurting and it is your fault…. nobody tells you this stuff! I knew I couldn’t have caffeine and shouldn’t drink but to find out you cant eat bananas, apples, and all sorts of other stuff that are a huge part of your diet, well it sucks! I have googled breast feeding diet a thousand times and the results are not that great, its mostly trial and error but damnit, when you error it is terrible.
We had a little playdate on Monday! Okay so it was more for us Mom’s than the kids but it was so good to put on a pair of real shoes and blow dry my hair and have a woman to talk to in person! It proved that I need to get out more. Last week I was so exhausted and a bit down because of the lack of sleep that I didn’t leave the house for 6 days! 6 days- that is not healthy. I know this now, if we didn’t get 6 inches of snow overnight we would be out today. I can drive in it by the way, it’s just that Mike took my car becuae it handles much better and has the only car seat base. Tomorrow we will leave, N’s 2 month check up and I have a few errands to run. Too bad hes too small to appreciate this snow!