Since having the babe I’ve been fairly sedentary. Up at all hours, yes. Walking from basement to 2nd floor for all diaper changes, yes. Holding boy while cooking, cleaning, sometimes. But actual heart thumping, honest to goodness exercise. Hardly. I can count the trips to the gym on ONE hand since I birthed the chunky monkey, one hand. I walked a lot in his first two months before it was too cold, but winter in Ohio, well she’s a bitch. The little red hand on the scale has been kind to me, it continue to go down as long as I watch my snacking. I’m a mere 4 lbs from my pre-baby weight and as all new Mom’s say, nothing is the same. Sure, I can get my pants on but everythings messy. Nothing is tight or smooth like it used to be. Okay, you can say its because it was all stretched out to house the baby and that’s true but I know that the real truth is because I have been lazy about getting back into shape. There, I said it.
I’m not comfortable with leaving Nate in day care at the gym and I’ve been too dang lazy to get our day worked around it anyway. I had planned on meeting Mike there in the evenings and using the day care then, too. But no, haven’t done either. Its time. I need to make this a priority. I was in great shape prior to pregnancy, running, yoga and light weight training. I was as happy with my figure as I had been since I was at my “fighting weight” on my wedding day. I want that back. I won’t ever be as light as I was that day, that # is not where I’m healthy but, I can get back to happy.
So, how will I do it? I’m not totally sure yet. One thing I can do at home is the Yoga, I have a TiVo full of Inhale, I’m going to start there. I will also bite the bullet and drop Nate off and hit the treadmill again. I am just struggling with my health vrs his, if he gets sick I will be SO pissed. Putting him in the nursery will expose him, that makes me nervous. I feel like I have the upper hand with that when he is home or out in public with me, but dropping him off… I don’t know. It’s not the care I’m worried about, just the germs. What is more important, getting my abs back or a healthy baby? I’m totally over thinking this, no?
I have to get it figured out, that is for sure. Mike tells me every single weekend to just say the word and he will watch the boy, and sometimes I go, but really, hardly ever. One thing is for certain. When Nathan hits 6 months we are getting into swim class, I don’t want to be the Mom in the pool with a skirt on her suit!