And to all, a goodnight…

Our Holiday trip has been extended last minute due to the passing of my Grandfather this week, we are headed west on Sunday.

I hope you all have a fantastic holiday and please, please count your blessings, hug every family member, tell everyone you love them.  Make it count!   Then, eat!

 Take Care everyone.   I will be back after the 1st.

Random Bits

I was this  close to getting all proud and posting a picture of me in one of my few pair of pre-pregnancy jeans that I managed to pour myself into yesterday, meaning I got them buttoned and zipped but they don’t quite “fit”…. and then this morning I decided to go thru my drawers.  Everything in them and my closet has gone unworn since about Februar/March when my chest started busting out of everything I own.   So, I needed to take some inventory. Then, I made the horrible mistake of trying things on.  It was not pretty!  All of my tops are too short, way too short.   I gained FIVE cups ya’ll, nothing in band width but 5 cups, this is taking up precious space in all of my shirts.  Not that big of a deal for this stay at home gig though right?  Sure.  The problem is this.  Next Thursday we head to WA for two weeks.  How in the hell are two pair of jeans and about 5 or 6 tops going to get me thru two weeks?  I’m going to have to do laundry but UGH!  I like to pack to look cute for my visits home since we see family and friends that we only see once or twice a year.  All I can think of is that line from Steel Magnolias- “Looks like two pigs fighting under a blanket”… SO no gloating that I got those jeans on.  There is no victory in this whatsoever. My goal was to be in my old clothes by this trip but Im not going to make it. I am dreading all of the family photos that will be taken, especially since a good 3 lbs of weight still hanging on is in my face.  Speaking of packing, do I bring my pump or not?  I cannot make up my mind,  we can go out on New Years eve if I do but the bag is not small….

In other news, this little baby of ours is really getting the hang of sleeping!  Last week he had two nights he slept for 5 hours straight and on Saturday night he went 7.5!  It was wonderful.  He seems to be getting into a really predictable schedule with both bedtime and naps which is awesome, I’m sure our trip and the 3 hour time change will blow it all.. oh, now I am sad again.

Remember a few months back I was talking about things to get done in the house before the baby?  One thing Mike and I disagreed on was getting our living room furnished.  Well its about done now.  We got a couple tables this weekend to add to the couch and chair we got about a month ago.  I am loving it!  Its really feeling like home on that floor now plus we have our tree in the same room. It is so nice and warm!  We need curtains and art, a rug and I have a bunch of paint swatches I’m working with but it is coming together.   YAY! 

 That’s about all that’s going on around here.. and so I dont dissapoint,  I know why you all come here…..

2 Months

 I knew that this kiddo had grown quite a bit, and lord knows he loves to eat.   We had a check up yesterday, his birth weight was 6lbs 6 oz, he was in the 5% at 11 days at 6-13.  Yesterday this little porker weighed in at 11 lbs 13 oz!  He is now in the 75%.

The second month was both wonderful and completely terrible.  He went from a really easy baby to one that was gassy (my fault!) and one who all but stopped sleeping!  His nights went from 3-4 hours of sleep at a time to 2, his naps were nearly all day long to maybe one 30 minute nap twice a day, if I was really lucky, he’d give me an hour. Thankfully this is all changed now, he is sleeping at night and napping again!

The wonderful, well the wonderful can’t hardly be put into words.   At 5 weeks he started smiling, not at us but not because of gas.  At 6 weeks, he smiled right at me and giggled.  Then we went on to cooing and to him talking to himself in the mirror, and responding with noises when we talk to him.  He is not only holding up his head but he pulls his whole body away from mine to look over my shoulder, he bears his weight on his legs to stand,  he is turning his head to watch us move around the room.  He loves his play mat, swatting at the hanging toys,  he will stay in his crib content for up to 20 minutes watching his mobile, he is noticing new textures when he touches them.  To watch him grow and change and gain strength is just amazing.  Though sad, everyday my tiny little baby is slipping away from me, already.

It happens so fast!  You know kids grow fast but until you have an infant in your house that you spend each and every day with, I had no idea how quickly this would happen.  I feel like sitting up, crawling and drivers ed are right around the corner… hold me!

Here is the big boy- he sits up really well like this but his arms are always moving trying to keep his balance, I suppose his 75% head could be contributing?

Now What?

I have been finding myself at a loss for words, and sort of finding myself lost as well.  I have so much going on, tons to talk about with a sister but not so much that I feel like its of any use here.  I was talking to Mike last night about possibly wrapping it up here but he encouraged me to keep at it.  Even if you all stop reading I guess its a good outlet.

So, I mentioned last week that the baby was eating every 2 hours and I wasn’t getting any sleep.  That day I decided I had enough and forced a schedule on him and it actually worked!  It took a couple days but hes got it now, he’s eating every 4 and taking naps again.  His “snacking” was really messing him up and he wasn’t getting nearly enough rest. He is much more content now.  Thank goodness, I was about to loose it.

I’m struggling a lot with what to eat.  Nathan has had a couple belly aches and the first one I know what caused it but this weekend was pure Hell and I have NO idea what I ate this time.  My Mom told me to cut out onions and apples, Ive done both and he has been fine ever since.  Its so hard,  I mean, apples?  How was I supposed to know that?  Its really exhausting, I question every single thing that goes in my mouth, I’m temped to just eat the exact same thing for the next 10 months just to be sure I don’t make him sick.  Its so heartbreaking to know that your baby is hurting and it is your fault…. nobody tells you this stuff!  I knew I couldn’t have caffeine and shouldn’t drink but to find out you cant eat bananas, apples, and all sorts of other stuff that are a huge part of your diet, well it sucks! I have googled breast feeding diet a thousand times and the results are not that great, its mostly trial and error but damnit, when you error it is terrible.

We had a little playdate on Monday!  Okay so it was more for us Mom’s than the kids but it was so good to put on a pair of real shoes and blow dry my hair and have a woman to talk to in person!   It proved that I need to get out more.  Last week I was so exhausted and a bit down because of the lack of sleep that I didn’t leave the house for 6 days!  6 days- that is not healthy.  I know this now, if we didn’t get 6 inches of snow overnight we would be out today.  I can drive in it by the way, it’s just that Mike took my car becuae it handles much better and has the only car seat base. Tomorrow we will leave, N’s 2 month check up and I have a few errands to run.   Too bad hes too small to appreciate this snow!